Song of the day #11: “Lisztomania” - Phoenix 

Anyone want to take a roadtrip right now? No map needed. We’ll just drive and listen to a roadtrip playlist that consists of Phoenix, The Kooks, Two Door Cinema Club, Vampire Weekend, etc. I just want to take a roadtrip to the beach right now. I need a break from everything. I want to clear my mind and have a fresh mind right now. I don’t need to be stressing out right now. It’s summer. I want to be relaxing and having fun and sitting out in the sun and tanning and listening to music and having a great summer!

Roadtrip to the beach soon!? 

Song of the day #10: “Believe” - Yellowcard

This is my favorite song of all time. I really want to get my “Be Strong, Believe” tattoo ASAP now. With what has happened in my life this past couple of months and leading up to today, this song has really gotten me through it. I really need to think about what I want to do with my life. I need to get back to writing again. I need to be happy again. I need to fix myself because for the past couple of months, I am not me. This song has helped me get through the hard stuff. Sometimes I wanted to give up. Sometimes I wanted to yell “fuck it, I quit!” Sometimes I wanted to just punch something. Instead I let it build up and explode at the wrong time. Instead I let my emotions pour out like Niagara Falls. (Like today!) Instead, I have secluded myself from people who care about me. I need to really think about this decision. I really need to think if transferring is the right decision or is it the easiest getaway from my problems I can’t face. I don’t want to leave because of the friendships I have made. I would do anything for certain people. They are the reason why I want to stay, but at the same time I’m not me. I’m not the old me who was happy and cheery and always thought positively. I was unstoppable. I can’t keep this fake persona that I am still that girl when I am not. I have a lot of thinking to do these next couple of days.

Wanna make a change right here right now
Wanna live a life like you somehow
Wanna make your sacrifice worthwhile

Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong. Believe.